40th Year Christmas Confession to Buddha's & 'We the People'

Dear Precious Eternal Buddha's, 

Om Mani Padme Hung.  I, Julie Christine,  am reviewing my 40 years of human evolution and walking the path of .  My birthday approaches and while i have offered my diary up to the world years ago, I want to take a moment and specifically confess specific unwholesome deeds I have done in my past as i have learned about love and being human. As this year closes and my 40th year on Earth is coming to an end, I am offering all to the King of Glorious Sutras.  Whatever unwholesome deeds i have done i confess in full through the King of Glorious Sutras the Sublime Golden Light, through my blog, diary, and prayers inside my heart always striving for total and complete Enlightenment for the benefit of others.

I can see that I have used my life to refine myself in the ways of love,developing virtue and truth.  I am thankful for that.  I used my time to grow myself and i am sorry for my mistakes and learned from them - looking back i am proud of my life but i do remember mistakes and things i will never do again. I have always had a tender heart towards others yet many mistakes were still made and much time was wasted. I request forgiveness for actions taken while being blind with ignorance, arrogance or pride.  I confess all and offer all.  Intimacy.  Into Me You See.  When one acknowledges something as a mistake and learns from it - it is no longer a mistake but a path of self awareness of how one moves from unvirtuous activity to engaging in virtuous activity for the benefit of all sentient beings.  here is my confession list.

I confess i stole things from department store once upon a time long ago
I confess i carelessly opened my body sexually to men thinking it was my role and duty as a woman - (almost 6 years celibacy now)
I confess i poured strong alcohol down my throat killing my brain cells and blurring my judgement of care and respect for my life
I confess laziness and apathy when i felt unloved
I confess i did not reach out often enough to others for fear of rejection
I confess being irresponsible at times at work by calling in sick or giving only 50% because i was sad on the inside but didn't know why
I confess any and all small moments of frustration, swear words, and any actions i have taken which was not in harmony with the vibration of love, kindness, respect and wisdom. 
I confess all untruths i have ever spoken out of fear or living a cowards life

"Whatever unwholesome deeds i have done
through harmful thoughts, harmful words
the thought of harm as harmless
and harmful actions done
or actions lacking in respect
these deeds i confess in full"

"By confessing them earnestly once
through this sutra all will be purified"

 "Swiftly and wholly consuming all karmic obstructions by making confession through Sublime Golden Light, I shall abide on the ten bodhisattva grounds - those mines of supreme precious jewels - that i may shine with a tathagata's marks and signs and Free Beings from the Ocean of Existence and Suffering" 

'Likewise, whatever merit i have gathered
through body speech and mind
by the force of this Sutra's ripening effect
May supreme Enlightenment be attained'
from chapter 4  of the King of Glorious Sutras the Sublime Golden Light.

i know human freewill and intelligence and consciousness raise all the time as we learn from mistakes.   I know WAR is a MISTAKE.  Since The purpose of my life is to evolve and document it i offer but a portion of my inside prayers into the outside world.  i do this to share my mistakes, my loves, and my learnings to contribute to global human evolution.  I aim to be a leader of peace, love and logic.  Through telling my truth to the people then they can know me and trust me.  then hopefully - when i am worthy enough - they will let me, Lady Liberty, talk to President Bush about 911.  In person.  Human to Human.  Man to Woman.  Father to Daughter.  Son to Mother.  War Lord to Peace girl.  All in one talk. 

We have Bush and Obama, but we also have BUDDHA's to choose from.  I believe we need our leaders (male or female) to better represent the values of Truth, Jesus, and Buddha in the White House in the present moment.  I call specifically to Zen Coach Greg.   

World Peace and LOVE is beyond religion.  It is our human right.  It is my American Dream for serving the people.  We can - as a nation - learn from mistakes.  We are here to learn. Obama and Bush both think WAR is ok.   I heard Obama say ,'I'm not opposed to War, I am opposed to a dumb war"  Well, the Jesus in me, is opposed to ALL KILLING.  So, I, a woman, stand with His Holiness the Dalai Lama and ALL the Buddhas who teach PEACE, LOVE, Wisdom, and Compassion.   I just don't know when i will be worthy enough to walk next to Bush down the Hall of the White House like Mr. Obama has done already.  (he even walked like Bush - like a mirror)
 
My Christmas Wish is that  this CIAngel (for Higher Intelligence in the White House)  can earn her Meeting with Angel Network and KingWorld Productions President Oprah Winfrey.
With hope in Peace,
julie christine